There are some friends who have accepted me as me and support me in my efforts to grow as a person. I have made some new wonderful friends who do have an understanding of what I have been through as they are dealing with similar issues. They listen with love and understanding and offer support and advice based on their own experience. They respect my choice to take their advice or not as I see fit.
So, if you haven't heard from me much or you haven't seen me hanging out at my old haunts*, don't take it personally. I've tightened the circle of trust and I'm not in a place to loosen my grasp right now.
*except H&C - that has been a logistical problem which should be fixed in the near future. see you soon!
- My family - of course
- Finding new friends
- Fellowship and the other fellowship
- growth and discovery
- food on the table, a roof over our heads, a car in the driveway and a paycheck in the mailbox.
- Hockey tickets
- my super smart cousin who told Santa about the Disney computer
- having a family room again (hmm... I think a pole would look nice there.)
- planning for the future
- learning that prayer is a conversation and that if I shut up and listen I can hear the answers.
- not making decisions based on fear.
- being wanted when not needed.
- new opportunities.
- looking forward, onward and upward.
so, a quick round up....
Andy and Ryan are pretty much the same - just taller. They are both still in MMA, but Ryan is now a higher rank than Andy (D'oh).
Ryan actually is having his best year yet academically, but best of all NO behavior issues. Andy's grades are pretty good, but his effort is lacking. If he did more than the minimum, he'd have all A's. He is also going to get OT for his handwriting and they are having him work on typing to help him keep up cognitively - hence the kid friendly computer.
Colin is now in Pre-K and LOVING it. He was the only student in his class for a while, but now he has two new friends. They are going to increase his class time to 5 mornings a week - YAY! He is going to have such a great time. He wants to get on the bus every morning anyway. That will start after Thanksgiving break. He wants to take karate too, but we told him he has to go poopy on the potty first.... soon enough...
Todd is back in MMA as well. I should actually start with - Todd is back. there are no words to truly explain what the last year has been like for us. The changes he has made in himself are astounding. He is a new man, and trust me the changes are for the better. Our lives now are so different from what they were last year that it is sometimes hard for me to remember what it was really like then. Don't get me wrong, the insanity isn't 100% gone, but now it is just fun insanity - or kid related.
As for me... I don't know where to start. The new job is OK. The work is easy. The hours are... well they vary. I'm at the end of a 3 month night rotation now. The nights are sometimes hard, but it does offer me a lot of flexibility for the days. I am actually going to guest lecture at CCSU this morning and I'm looking forward to it. It is really amazing what opportunities have opened themselves up to me now that my decisions are based on my own desire.
how about some pics?
I am doing a BOTM on Ravlery and I'm assembling the strips and lap quilting them. The print fabrics are vintage feed sacks. This is the first strip:
The back pieced from the scraps
the first block of the next strip
scraps from that block for the backing strip
This is a top that I threw together last week from strips in my stash.
As you can see, I've been in more of a sewing mood lately. I have been knitting too, but mostly boring utilitarian socks for work.
First... this is a temporary return. I will get back to regular blogging when things settle out a bit more. Things are going well.. but it is a journey.
- A cool new job with a great boss and a interesting yet pleasant cast of characters.
- Three big kids in school (pictures are comming).
- Colin's "big" Pre-K classroom (OK - so he is the only kid in his class... REALLY!)
- A healthy hubby.
- A family room that is a family room again!!!
- quilting - Goddess pictures are comming too. they are on Mom's computer
- the great big list
- The other even bigger list
- my Sunday night gang
- Birthday Boy #1
(yeah that is a pile of Bakugan Birthday Cake Balls! )
- Birthday boy #2
(That is a Tofutti "ice cream" cake.)
- sanity and serenity
- being back on the bike
- Brown Gables
So... Here is the thing with these lists. The concept is taken form Mama Gena. But it is really about (for me) self-reflection. I take stock of every thing that I have and see how blessed I really am. Then I make a list of my desires ..big and small. It helps me put things in perspective. Where I'm comming from and where I am going.
Well, last week, I wasn't able to get to the blog, but I put pen to paper. I wrote and wrote and wrote. The thoughts just came pouring out and didn't want to stop! Then I took a look back at what I wrote. Suddenly.... my life made sense. The path I've taken.. the twists.. the turns... falling off of a cliff of two...
The most amazing thing I realized was that I know now where it is I want my life to be headed. Still not sure how I'm going to make it from here to there, but I now have a clear goal in mind. I'm refreshed, relieved and inspired!
so... go make you own list of grattitudes and desires! enjoy!
Andy and I are reading "Anne of Green Gables" so we thought it appropriate to name it Brown Gables.
- Andy's Birthday
- book reviews
- crafty stuff (crochet dodecahedrons, Andy's quilt, Goddess quilt and sock monsters)
- our new vacation home
- Colin's ST
- PPTs for Andrew and Colin
- book reviews (hint- Twilight series=rediculously predictable)
oh - and thanks Mary for pointing out that I'm WAAAAYYY behind.
I'm also working on updates and caping tips for my Daddy Day Camp Blog.
Andy made his first Communion a week ago. For those of you who arent' Catholic, it is a HUGE deal - a major rite of passage. What has been really interesting to watch is how he's started paying attention and following along in Mass. I suppose it all makes a LOT more sense now that he know what is going on and why.
Anyway... I'll let the pictures speak for themselves...